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Welcome home. The powerful reset and complete understanding of what I just experienced in only 1 week from arriving to Costa Rica. My rebirth, my blood, my heart, my soul this is the very essance of who I am... What have I been holding onto for soo long? Why was did I allow my self to live in the concrete jungle for that many years? This is the real Jungle... This is where I belong. God is good I'm smothered by grace feeling the full presence of source. I watch in awe as see get to see this beutiful life unfolding before my very eyes. Tears of Joy stream down my face as I melt into the arms of Gaia once again, What did I do to deserve this beautiful life? my family, my friends, My angels and my Guides that surround me each and every day. I watch as everything I'v ever known and been trained to believe is being cleansed from my mind, body and soul. The life I lived back in the city was only part of the story, God has a bigger plan for me and its here in Costa Rica. My lineage from my mother womb, the native blood that fules this tico soul of mind... I crave this land, I honor this land, I have been thirsty for far to long. Feeling heaven on earth here quinching my thirst for LOVE LIGHT and the healing power of plants and animals.. This is the real medecine our true heart beat and everything that makes up who we are. we are Gaian these are five elements of life.. "Earth, Fire, Water, Air, Ether". Its only been 1 week since I stepped foot on this land and already experienced so much understand and spiritual growth. This is how you welcome home a true tico... So let me give you a quick summary of what the fuck just happend... lets rewind and go back intime for a quick second. On the first day of this year Janurary 1 2021 I lay in bed depleated of seritonon from a long new years eve of paryting, drinking, taking Ectacy and doing cocaine all night... These are my shadows this is what takes my soul away, these mindless moments of self destruction. Hiding behind the mask of drugs and alchole and discconectin from my heart. This has been going on for far to long, hanging out with the wrong peoeple and allowing myself to get lost with no direction home. What have I been holding onto for soo long? I'v been hiding and running from myself.. Holding on to patterns that only make me less of a man, shutting down my prana and everything that makes me shine.. I have always struggled with letting myself get carried away in partying, always regreting it the next day and weeks after. How could I allow myself to fall into that space... not living my fullest potential, holding back from my true healing nature. I have been tyring soo hard to heal and grow but something about that concreate jungle gets me soo discrated and disconnect from the nature I need to do the real work, the inner work.. I NEED TO BE IN NATURE, I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THE CITY, I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS TOWN, I NEED TO LEAVE THIS COUNTRY, I NEED A NEW PATH, CARRY ME, GUIDE ME AND SHOW ME THE WAY.. So there I lay on January 1st crying and praying for change... "God please take me out of this pattern im in, God please surround me with new friends.. healthy friends that keep me on track, friends that can hang out without drinking, smoking or partying" as I closed my eyes tears rolled down my face and all I can see is a rainforest... my eyes closed all I can see is the vision of the rainforest. I asked god what this is, this was a glimps into the future and a hint of what was to come... I prayed and the answer came through... "COSTA RICA? I need to go leave this year and go to Costa Rica?" the answer was clear and a strong YES, I needed to focus my attention on getting to costa rica this year, thank you for this vision god. The very next day all I can think of was the jungle and how I would love to go to Costa Rica the contry in wich my family comes from. I have been disconnected from far to long and its time to go back to see what this was all about. So the very nextweek I got invited to comne to costa rica by my friend Luaren, she ownes a resturant in Golfito and offered to host me and pay me to help her build photo and video content for her resturant. I said yes and starting really planning to go in Feb, long story short her plan fell through as she met a man in cali and is not going back to Costa Rica.. So right in that same week I get a call from my friend Sky saying she needs me in costa rica to film a prject with Gaia TV on a property called Punta Mona with a man called Stephen brooks a permaculur farm and adventure paradise in southern Costa Rica on the Caribbean side, long story short that plan fell through so I was not giving up and already knew I was going to Costa rica as soon as possble.. I wake up sunday morning and went to the farmers market I come across a coffee vendor that is selling there 100% costa rican coffee, I met the man behind the booth and told him I was going to be in costa rica and if he ever needed a videographer so I gave him my card. Three days later he called me and long story short booked my flight for March 13th to fly to Costa Rica to film his Coffee Farm.. BAM! ITS HAPPENING... COSTA RICA HERE I COME.. I start getting everything ready to go finishing up projects and packing my bags.. I had this feeling of going for a long time maybe a month or two to film the coffee farm and just do some solo adventuring after. So here I go, I'm 2 days away from leaving to Costa Rica. Bags are packed and im ready to go film this Coffee Farm and I get a call from the owner... He called me telling me "Sorry we can have you film our beans, the beans are bad and we cant have you film anything".. but he also told me to keep my ticket he purchased as a gift to go to Costa Rica. What a blessing in disquise